But I when I was working in a nursery setting 10years ago my mental health took a turn for the worse. Baring in mind this was not down to the children not one bit they were fantastic and to this day I still miss the kids I looked after. But I found myself in a slump and because of that I suffered depression so severely that I found myself on the sick and having to attend the doctors to seek medication and CBT. I really struggled for 12months and just couldn’t see an end to it all. So much so I was getting drunk, smoking not wanting to see people and I couldn’t Invision myself going back to the job I originally loved so much.
The medication helped lift my mood and talking to someone really was the best thing I could have done for me. I ended up giving up my job and going to work with hubby there started my journey to being self employed. I’ve never properly worked for anyone else since.
I took medication for a long time but managed to get weaned off it so to speak to the point I now control my own mental health without meds or at least I do try. I have the odd times when I feel extremely low and wonder if I need to seek medical assistance again but so far I am doing alright.
The girls coming along really helped with that. The chance to be a mum was nothing short of a miracle for me. And I wouldn’t do anything to change that they are my world.
Without these gorgeous girls this mamas mental health may have been worse.
I do still suffer the odd bouts of depression and I suffer with anxiety a lot and sometimes I would rather stay in bed than adult but I have to for the girls and I will continue to do so for the rest of my life.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Let’s squash the mental health taboo one day at time.