Well this is awkward…. Where the hell do I start?? The last time I wrote anything was back in May last year when I told you all about the charity event we did as a family, since then I have been off grid with my writing and socials have been a little up and down.
So 9 months on and so so much has happened, Megan had yet another pandemic zoom birthday party back in July, obviously this was not what any of us would have liked but at the time it just couldn’t be helped… At the end of August before the girls returned to school into their new year groups, we headed off to North Wales for our final family holiday as family of 5! During August/September time is when things took an upsetting turn! For those who have been with me since the very beginning in 2017, you will know I lost my wonderful grandad to Parkinson’s disease, leaving my Nan on her own after almost 60years of marriage. For almost 5 years we all rallied round her, doing what we could to support her and just generally be there for her in any way possible. Sadly Nan was completely heartbroken by the major loss of her husband and she always struggled to move forward no matter what anyone did. I kept my promise to my grandad and kept up my weekly visits to spend time with her but nothing could ever replace the love my nan and grandad had for each other! The pandemic obviously messed things up as well with lockdowns etc…. which really didn’t help anyone at all.
Anyway back to August/September last year, so my poor nan had a major fall due to a mini heart attack which caused her to break her hip, obviously this resulted in a hospital admission and surgery to repair the hip, whilst we were away on our holiday my nan came through this major surgery which for all of the family was a major relief, and we all thought she would fight through it and come home. Unfortunately this was not to be the case, although we were all able to video call her it just wasn’t the same and she was just so sad and in constant pain which in turn made her not want to eat. No matter how much we all tried our wonderful nan just wanted to give in and be with my grandad, I will always take comfort in one thing I was the last person to get her to eat anything as she kept refusing, I always made sure to tell her how much we all loved her and how much we wanted her well and home to us. Not being able to visit her was completely heartbreaking but we all thought we’d be able to hold her tight again. I never thought this year I would be writing this, but in the early hours of September 11th 2021 my wonderful nan deteriorated which meant she suffered another heart attack in her sleep and slipped away peacefully, and no longer in any pain which is something. We have all been left completely heartbroken by her loss as its been such a major shock, but thankfully the hospital allowed us in a shut off part of the ward in 2’s so we were able to say one last goodbye, hug and kiss her….It broke me like it did with all my relatives, but I held her one last time and told her how much she will always be loved by all of us and gave her a massive cuddle from the girls who miss her so much. We will always keep her memory alive and never not talk about her, both my nan and grandad were such a massive part of my life and the kids loved them deeply. I just hope they are looking down on us all now and they can see me and be proud of how far I have come personally since my nans passing. And I will strive to keep making them proud, and I truly believe that the direction my life is going now has everything to do with my wonderful grandparents and they know myself and the girls are finally happy.
Things since late September haven’t exactly been to great, but that is a long story for another day, just know things are on the up and I have now had my major surgery that I have waited over 3 years for and myself and the girls have had a lovely Christmas. I don’t tend to do resolutions but since mid November my life took a massive turn around and I couldn’t be happier, I am recovering well from my Mitrofanoff surgery and living life to the fullest. 2022 is definitely my year and I have some amazing people in my life spurring me on and many exciting things to look forward too. I will strive to start my writing again a lot more as I have really missed it and it always makes me happy sharing life’s ups and downs. Can’t thank everyone who reads my little blog enough for all the support in the past 5years and all the support I have received over my socials and from family and friends recently especially with how life is now.
So sorry this one has been a really short one, its going to take me a little time to regain my blogging mojo but I will get there eventually. Lots more to come from MamatoMoominandBear in the coming months so do stay with me.
Thank you
Kayleigh x
